News....

Went out on Friday night and finally kissed a new boy :) And when I say boy, I mean boy. He was 6 years younger than me :s

He was quite good looking though but to be fair I didnt really fancy him and knew it wouldn't lead to anything.

Was out with a friend and we were ambushed, it was quite funny really. We went out just the two of us for a girly catch up which was nice and then towards the end of the night two guys came over and sat next to us as though they were just minding their own business and then one of them turns to me and says that him and his friend had been having a debate - his mates girlfriend had recently bought a new dress but it didnt look good on her, should he tell her? Apparently this is a true story but it was obvious they just wanted to talk to us. As I was engaged in conversation a third guy sat down right opposite my mate, obviously wanting to talk to her, and there we were - ambushed by three young men! It was sweet really.

Although the cutest one of the three had a girlfriend, the one next to me despite being beautiful was really arrogant and the third was after my mate (who has a boyfriend). Anyway, we all chatted politely and then it came to home time. Realised the lads lived really close to me and so asked them to walk me home as it was practically on their way. They agreed. Note, I wouldnt usually let strange boys walk me home but they'd been quite genuine and I trusted my instincts. Plus, I really didnt want to draw another tenner out of the bank.

So on the way home, the other lads ended up ahead of me and so it was just the beautiful arrogant one left. It turns out he was quite sweet deep down really, we were talking about pulling and being single and he was saying that he didnt want his mates to think he was a fanny but really he didnt want to sleep with girls that he didnt think something of any more than I wanted to sleep with randomers. Whether this was a line or not I dont know but I took him as being serious. However then he said to me that it was obvious him and his mates had only come over to talk to my mate and not me and did it ever get me down that my mate was clearly fitter than me.

Now, I know thats probably going to sound shocking but he actually hit the nail on the head. This has been the story of my life. Boys coming over to chat my mate up rather than me. And that isnt just me feeling sorry for myself, it is actually true. I think it is just because she is better looking than me, rather than it being a reflection of my own looks because I never fare badly for attention when I'm out with different people. Anyway, then we were talking he told me he thought I was cool, he took me home and then we said bye. He turned around after he'd started walking away though and said that he should at least get a kiss goodbye and so we had a bit of a hasty snog in the middle of the road. He wasn't a good kisser but not to worry, I wasn't going to see him again.

So thats that. Ok, not the best story in the world but at least its some news, things have been a bit bleak on the man gossip front of late and so it was nice to actually talk to someone different.

With regards to J, well I still havent seen him and so theres nothing to report but I know that I still really like him as I still think about him a lot. I sort of swing from feeling like I'm pleased I don't see him anymore as thats the best thing for me to still wanting to tell him that he led me on and was unfair, to then wanting to at least establish some sort of friendship with the guy again - cos I did think we were friends. But maybe not hey?