Despondent

Feel totally despondent with...well with life today. I think I'm just in a funny mood. I know after Tuesday I should be feeling sexy and naughty because it was exciting. But I think, well I think the reason I don't is because thats just not what I'm looking for anymore. And even this whole internet dating thing is becoming less exciting now because at first it was good attention and the wonder of not knowing who I might meet or where it might lead to but I think its time to realise that I want a cuddle. I want to go to climb into bed with someone after a long day and tell them the ups the downs, the highs the lows. And I don't have that now. And sometimes it sucks.